life as I know it

I am still struggling to find that ever elusive balance that I chose to prize above all else this year. It has been weighing on my mind that things have not been going to plan and then today I suddenly realised something I should have known all along - for me it is simply not possible to be in a constant state of balance, but rather my life is the result of constant ebb and flow that needs to occasionally be reigned in to ensure my overall existence is one of balance.

I know, it sounds as though I am being overly philosophical, but it is a simple truth I am only just now fully comprehending. Life is busy, demanding, quiet and rewarding all at the same time. I guess my only regret is that I am racing towards the quiet moments in life in order to embrace them rather than just stumbling into a moment of downtime that requires nothing of me whatsoever. I am in a constant state of movement, but for now I have to appreciate and embrace the fact that this is who I am right now.